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2009-10-24T11:58:00.002+08:00

MISSES CAMBODIA!!!
25TH MARCH 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAYY TO ELROY SIM!!! ((:

AND

TO

KAMAL TOO!!
HAPPY ADVANCED 20TH BIRTHDAYY!!
MAY U CELEBRATE WITH HAPPINESS AND STRESS FREEE!! ((:

2009-10-05T00:57:00.010+08:00

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On birthday girl's day,suppose to haf fun with Fel&Chuck at Escape Theme Park,

but plan cancelled.

suppose to hang out with tasha over at her place but plan cancelled.

Eventually met Aida, Viknesan [ kaka ] and Bala up.
Head to cwp to bought some CUTE LITTLE CARE BEARS..

Apparently which th guys hate! LOL! And head to Feltham place in Kaka 's car..
At a later time he went to fetch Rayyan and JoeySim!!

Here are th pics for tht day :

Chuck.Fel.Vik

Murtabak as th cuttin of cake ceremony. LOL!

Aida.Me.Fernanda

Vik focusing on his road

AidaRidz & NysaOct

memories of me and fel back then in 2008 painting tht little pony on th wall

aida.bala.rayyan.viknesan.joey [ below ]

FernandaTham.NysaOct.Feliciatham [ below ]

Baby dog also joined us ((:

welcoming JoeySim!! ((:

happily meeting with one another after sooooo long!!...

over at Syed's eating plc

**Thank you Fel for the shoe (:**

**Thank you Fel mom for giving me th mooncake**

-suprised tht u still rmbr i love mooncake..hehe!

To all of my dearest frens above,

Zuraidah Ridzuan , Felicia Tham , Joey Sim , Andiq Rayyan Aizat ,

Viknesan Chandra , Bala Murali..

We been together for so long since th day we met in sec1..

Never did i expect this day to happen..

Thank u so much for th close bonding tht we still share with one another..

I appreciate all th 'happenings' laughter and joy today..

Memories of us during our Awesome 4na8 and 5na2 day

will always attain there in my memory..

ily guys!!

<33

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2009-10-04T03:24:00.013+08:00

my 2009 Birthdayy @home ((:

i wore tht christ church shirt of yours so tht ure also there to celebrate wit me..

it feels odd without u around to wish me happy bdayy and disturbing me..

MY 2008 BIRTHDAYY @ home ((:

For th OCTAVIAN babies ((:

2009-10-01T18:17:00.000+08:00

TO OCTOBER BABIES THAT I KNOW

Rumaishah [ shea ] - 1st oct
Hafeezah - 3rd oct
Ieena - 5th oct
Louistham - 5th oct
Anand - 7th oct
Hoobs - 25th oct

happy birthday and happy advanced! ((:

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COUNT UR LIFE BY SMILE NOT TEARS...
COUNT UR AGE BY FRENS NOT YEARS..
WISHING U ALL TH GREAT THINGS IN LIFE
HOPE THIS DAY WILL BRING U AN XTRA SHARE OF ALL THT MAKES U TH HAPPIEST..

2009-09-28T01:54:00.003+08:00

HyunJoong diagnosed wit H1N1 back then..

sucha dull looking face his having.. yet still looking cute...

I love his cap!! )):

2009-09-27T03:11:00.001+08:00

pictures of relatives visiting house... (:

uncle zul and bibik Sundari (dari) i love her (: [ below ]

dad and mummy (: [ below ]

2009-09-27T00:40:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY, 27th Sept 09

invited Kat over to my place to eat ((:

we'r busy camwhoring in my room while having private girls talk ((:

look at her!! busy dolling herself up!! thank god thr's no camera while i was dolling up! haha!

she loves making faces!!

anywayy i love you my emm i guess my 15years bestfren (:

** blueek!! **

*** HUGGIESS! ***

2009-09-24T22:40:00.005+08:00

Ive been so sleepy and restless for work lately..
Guess its due to th Festives Season......
Kept sleep'g in th train wit head banging while on th way to work..
I am really lack of rest!! i exhaust myself too much....
But since thr's Ngee Ann Yr 1 students around,
things at work would b a lil lighter..

My beloved Tasha Keira Riyad is back in s'pore for th time bein!!
She's gona return bck in Dec! Im gona mit her up n spent time together!
I miss her! Yay! gonna meet real soon!!

below: pic of me and tasha back then in 2007 Raya..

2009-09-22T18:15:00.003+08:00

WISHING ALL MUSLIMS HAPPY HARI RAYA!! ((:

First day of Raya , as per usual every year stay @ home.

Daddy bein th eldest , all his other siblings will pay a visit to our house.

Help mummy wit th serving of food for th guest.

As compared to last year, this year wasnt as busy.

The nyte before stay up pretty late.Last round of touch up n cleanin up.
Rewarding myself wit KOREAN drama marathon till 0530am for all th hardwork n tiredness

A BIG THANKS to these ppl for wishing happy hari raya :

Isk-sways *AidaRidz * Shimin Rafika

Luqman *Hatiah* Joseph* Kelvin

Charlene *Jumah *Farhan* Priya shamugar

Priya shivaji *Gayathiri* Yazid* ChinWei

Quraishia *Farah* Geevan *Kamaruzzaman

Isk-sways invited me over to his new plc.Told me to tag along with Louistham, Bon, Fazlie...

But hope Feltham is goin.. Lookin forward of goin to thou.. thus hope i haf accompany..

This year festives im kinda in a slack mood.. Didnt bought any Raya clothes.

Didnt Bake ; no time.....

Im gonna b an aunty to my very own nephew soon..

my sister ( kak julie ) is 6mths pregnant..

Thanks Allah for finally grantin her wish n allowin a new bundle of joy to her family..

I know problems gonna arise th moment th baby is born.

Tht woman ( my evil originated mother ) gona give issues n dilemma..

Its gonna gif me a huge headache n stress.

Wdever occurs/ blame / anything of tht sort , i'll protect daddy as a daughter .

I hate when all these happens.

We siblings gona haf arguement , anger , sadness , stress n ...... HAIX.

Prevent all these frm happening Allah ; as u are th mighty ones...

2009-09-18T01:18:00.003+08:00

im stress out!!

in everything,....!!

almost abt everything is on my mind..

th concern worries stressor .. everything!!

simply said, i jus wanna abandoned frm everything , break apart and quit.....

its too stressing in my mind...

my body is goin thru fight and flight!!

i need to break free myself soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i wanna stop thinking of anything and everything for once..!!

arrgggghhhhh!!!! somebody!!!! pls !!!! trigger me off!!!!!

2009-09-16T23:52:00.003+08:00

out for a swim with Maisha after a tiring work (:

on 14 August 09

shea loves camwhoring..

cant deny tht..

all th 'babat'-licious portruding out!!

2009-09-16T23:24:00.005+08:00

happy 19th birthdayy to nurulhuda!!

on 18 august 09

below>> maisha azurah and me

below>> me and fazrina

celebrating

birthdayy girl suprised party;

nurul huda
@ pitstop cafe (:

2009-08-31T21:46:00.002+08:00

i cleaned up few days back..
saw all th past memories..

its hard thinking abt it and accepting th reality...

i miss him....
use to had a big fight with him thru msges,..
and at times i wld write it down on a paper th msges
that we send to each other...

And this is wd i found... a handful of them :
it was in 2007

" eshak here.. tell micheal if he's my blood ask him to call me back.
All of u call urself fren uh? Im jus a fucker to u all ryte,nvm... "

"Till now i dono wd u think abt me..
but i haf erased u frm my heart 4eva..
i will nvr be in ur life and disturb u anymore..
Pls don ever play with a persons feelings anymore..
make this promise..
wdever i told u pls don tell anyone.
Even if you abt to die.i want to die asap.
im independent again. " -eshak

-im trying not to play with ppls' feelings....
im more patience then before..

"Eventhou i forget u, th things which hpn, th happiness,
th fights, th words u use to me, th most important,
th spear which u poke into my heart will i nvr be forgotten.
i will learnt my lesson frm u..
But pls do me a favour, never forget me.
i will nvr forget this day.
my last day of being me being happy..eshak die.. " -eshak

"I will nvr believe th word LOVE anymore.
whoevr tell me tht thy love me that means they saying dt im a mother fucker. including frens, parents,gals. i had enuf." - eshak

" I trust and love on everyone. All long ppl haf been fake to me.
They jus haf been treating me like a bastard.
i'll forget tht i haf ever love you and i'll forget tht i haf ever love syadariena too. You jus b happy with whoever ure with.. " -eshak

i think his death wld firstly had a big impact towards me and syadariena..the way we hurt him with our words thru out th time..only he cld feel th agonising pain..Im sorry i didnt mean it.. Im sure iena didnt mean it too. Its just hard to ditch u and telling you so many times tht we dont haf feelings for u despite of ur stubborness. AND IM SUCHA A BETRAYAL TO U BACK THEN.. AM SORRY.. I saw ur baby pic when ur mum is carryin u and i burst out badly even ryte now i am doin so.. i miss an idiot person like u... ):

Secondly am sorry on behalf of Aida , Fel and Yuna.

i admit we 4 did talk bad n gossip abt u...

cant help but always thinking about you these days and suddenly start crying again n again... maybe am jus emotionally affected moreover with th situation i am now.. i put all my current problems,things aside jus to think abt th past and revisited our memorable place we once share all together with th 556 family...

i miss us..... i miss you.......

ur message u send me above ended up almost all true..

you really died and left us..

forgive me for everything........ **bursting to tears**

god will always bless ur soul for ur good deeds.....

WITH LOVE ;

NISAOCT <33

2009-08-31T21:12:00.002+08:00

having a bad day at the ward....
it sucks there...

but thanked god im only left with 4 more dayys..

suppose to have hols tmr but gotta work for replacement sake....
morning shift...

We miss IMH dearly....
our patients...
our clinical instructor...
everyone.......

its all written on th face..
everyone doesnt seems to be eager to start work again at general ward..
seems to be wanting to return to buangkok green...

haix....

likewise wd Jeff told me.... :
*ENDURANCE* -keyword of th dayy..

just endure and work and its all gonna be over n done with...

BIG THANKS TO JEFF for everything....
for teaching me lots of stuffs..
cheering me up...
and being an advisable personal gynae...

hahahh.. *was just playing ard thou*

but seriously thanks for bein there when i was having so much pain with those crammppyy face...

2009-08-31T21:07:00.000+08:00

STUPID BLOG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GIVING PROBLEM AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CERTAIN POST CANT BE VIEWED!!!!!

AND I CANT UPLOAD PICS!!!!!

MAYBE SHLD CONSIDER STOP USING THIS N START USING PITTAS OR LIVE JOURNAL & STUFFS!!

WILL TRY AGIN TO POST MY NEW POST...

2009-08-30T21:32:00.000+08:00

im all dressed up to meet and break fast with hubbahoobs.. (:
But eventually.....
he has something on...!!

mummy knows tht i'll be breaking my fast outside..
she bought food for herself n daddy n grandma..

was kinda angry when got to knw tht hubbahoobs not goin for dinner with me...
coz 'die die' ive gotta leave house..-ive got no food at home..mummy didnt buy for me..

that kinda bring my whole mood down!!!
search all contact for people to eat with me....

best fren is busy schooling...
vik is outside...

hmmmmm...

then i rmbr my ex.. he's been eating outside lately.. mama went home late n didnt cook.
ate at our normal eating place nearby his house..

thanks thou..
pity him at times..
sucha loner nowadays eversince th breakup with th ex-gf..

2009-08-27T23:32:00.002+08:00

i was angry towards the control station woman not you.
i simply could not hide my furious anger till i ended up having a foul mouth
and a tongue-lashing..
worse still,i was fasting & i did that.
i couldnt calm myself but to be angry and blame it on you for askin me to Q thr..

I WASNT ANGRY AT YOU

BUT......

i was rather disappointed in you. Seeing me in tht kind of state,
you shld haf at least console and calm me dwn. -but nvr did you...

you kept silence thru'out th train journey. i understand u wanna
leave me alone to cool dwn myself but it will take 10 mins only.
Yet u still kept silence and nvr did u at least call me to stand up frm
my seat to drop off frm th train.
You simply stood up and took ur steps. -Am i invisible??

yes i was pleased tht you did look back at me while walkin.
-I appreciate it...

By then why u still didnt speak a word??!!!!!!!!!

You walk so fast havin me to tail behind ur back..

You cross the road without me. without assuring will i cross th road safetly..

leaving me walking in tht kind of area without u by myside...

You remain tight-lipped and only talk when i ask u questions.

AM I INVISIBLE????

If you truly love me deeply jus like th words tht were spoken by u,
eventhou we fight, you wld still be concern abt me when it comes to my safety...
You would...

calm me down,
talk me thru,
make me forget th incident n put my anger aside,
call me to drop off frm th train,
make me cross th road by urside,
make me walk by urside............

When we sat down waiting for dawn to set, i was trying to ammend th problem,
but nvr did u willing to participate to reconcile things...

i talk to you nicely with a low tone, in a nice manner, address u 'baby '
yet in return i get harsh sentence such as
' ape lgi nysa'.. 'puase pon nak gadoh' ..'dah?dah habis nysa?'
its shows you're sick n tired of me and u're unwilling to work it out with me..

i have nothing more to say.....

im utterly devastated i dont know wd shld be done......

2009-08-22T00:01:00.001+08:00

WANNA CATCH OUR DREAMS & TRAVEL TOGETHER?

2009-08-08T05:28:00.002+08:00

*What I Love About You*

I love the way you look at me,

Your eyes so bright and clear.

I love the way you kiss me,

Your lips so soft and smooth.

I love the way you make me so happy,

And the ways you show you care.

I love the way you say,

"I Love You,"

And the way you're always there.

I love the way you touch me,

Always sending chills down my spine.

I love that you are with me,

And glad that you are partially mine.

] 02.08.09 ] sUNdAY [

2009-08-08T01:35:00.002+08:00

Here's an update for you TashaKeira my dearly far away frm home Gf

WELL...
Has been feeling vexed and so uptight lately for th past couple of months..
But not everydayy thou.. Its my daily life im referin to..

You know wd im feeling rite now Tasha??
I just hope u'r here...am not in th rite mood and state ryte now..

Rmbr i told you im seeing someone..??well thr seems to be a lil problm bout it..
haix. hope u knw which one im referin to... not any of th chinese one thou...

haixxx. Cant help but cant stop feeling extremely dwn now....

OH I JUS RMBR SOMETHING!!!
Guess what?? Farhan *haha am scrolling eyes*, he's back on my phone track..
Like wd you wld always say bck then... He'll always return to find me..
You and your salty tongue swtheart...youre always right..
No matter wd, he'll always turn to me eventually..
As per normal he broke off wit his gf. He contact me.
He reminisced via msg th past we shared , offered me to meet up with him couple of times.
Pestering me to reply his msges..
Oh god im sure u knw how irritating it is..

Hell no im gonna agree with all these things...
Im a fully strong girl now!!!! haha! you must be proud of me ok!!
I'VE TOTALLY CHANGED! No longer th weak girl in th past anymore...

All time long fighting with him everydayy in th past...
Tell me about it! i hate repeating those kind of relationship fights up till now..
Even now it still happens to me n my current dating guy..
but one thing good compared to th past was tht im less EGO when fighting wit my current dating guy. Seriously he should count himself lucky tht im no longer like th past me which is

-SOOO EGOO!
-SOOO TEMPERAL!!
-SOOOO EVIL AND COLD HEARTED!!

At the end of th day after me n this current guy fight, i tend to be more soft hearted..
and things will be fine at th end of th day..
Unlike last time im not soft hearted to farhan. LOL! not his luck then...

But i still do haf th mentality tht relationship wil never work if there's often a fight goin on..
And to just give up in tht relationship and put them all aside...
Im so strict to myself when it comes to tht..
Bcoz my perception is tht u either choose to work tht relationship out and do some ammendments or you just simply forget abt th relationship
and move on coz it will nvr work for th two of u.

Its not easy for me to simply start a relationship so easily ryte now..
Cz i had enuf n hate to repeat th same hurting moments..
SUCHA HEART ACHING...
Unless there's a soft spoken innocent chap whom for sure will not cause any fights..
Sucha rare to find those guys nowadays..
Only th lucky girl gets it... (:
hmmm... fat hope miracle wont hpn to me.. LOL!

HOW ABT YOU SWEETHEART??
Haf any special one thr??
im sure u haf at least a crush on one...
Tell me abt it...

hahah!!

**write me bck under this post comment column...
I MISS YOU DEARLY.....
LOTS OF HUGS N KISSES..
TAKE CARE MY LOVE... (:

2009-05-25T12:00:00.000+08:00

okayy well im just updating for th sake of doin soo...

anywayy, tasha keira when in th world did u posted me tht comment..
goodness i miss u too dearest and indeed love you too nevertheless...

had gerontology lesson todayy and we'r ask to talk abt someone precious who you haf lost in ur life... majority talk abt their beloved grandma n pap's.. while some talk abt their onces used to be lover and stuffs...

As for me, who came into my mind??

its him; Esh...

after so many months u're been gone from my mind.
never did i thought i would tears again..
but it did eventually...

memories of us all came flashin back ..
haixx...

wish it didnt haf to turn up this way...

but anywayyy im not gonna tears anymore..... gotta be strong and move on...

(:

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my girlfriend my girlfrens!!!!!!

calling for my girlfriends out thr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i miss u guys!!!!

fel! yuna! Q! ieena! aida!

meeet up sooonnnn girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-10T16:13:00.004+08:00

ITS A RESTING DAYY TODAYYY!!!!!!!!!

Its been almost everydayy i've been goin out n returnin home late eversince th day i came back frm Cambodia..

HELL YEAH

Just awaitin for th day daddy's gonna screw me up!!

HAHAHAH!

Thus.... todayy, i better force my ass to say at home..

Need to applyy those supper hardcore strong supperglue on my butt to make em attach on my bed for 24hours.

9.APRIL.2009 THURSDAY (:

.........................................................

Met up with gerontology grp to act out for our documentry play.

Sunny hot dayy..

Hop frm place to place to haf our play.

Was tough rememberin script..

Overall it turn out well.. thanks guys for th hardwork..

And thanks to Adel; Marina's bf for helpin up thru out th thing..

Evening at 6 met up with Mal, walk ard, sat at PS stucks

Bert Nad and her partner join us too at a later time..

Went to Esplanande, Watch Acapella music performance....

Off i go when Tim & Nic arrived.

Had great time laughin ard n stuffs..

thanks for th talk Nad.. (:

2009-04-04T23:00:00.005+08:00

JUMPIN IN JOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YEAH!!!

NYSA'S JUMPIN FOR JOY!!!!!

dammm!! finally it came out frm my chest!!

im glad u called.

cant blame me, i aint haf ur number..

and my fault i didnt went online for 2 dayys.

and i swear i admit i miss you too...

thought u've forgotten totally abt us;

[how we had our first talk;

and how we've became close]

since u've alrdy haf a newbies...

but glad after th talk, i realise u didnt forget abt our closeness eventually..

frankly.....

thought i've already long lost you since th talk tht we had abt th problm im in..

but todayy when u called,

i realised tht never once did i lose you..

LOLS!!

im utterly gladdd!!!

SUPER-super GLAD!! that everything is out..

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*** AND HELL YEAH I MISS YA!!! ***

2009-03-18T20:35:00.005+08:00

I SWEAR!!! I MISS MY SECONDARY SCHOOL DAYYSS...

LOOKING BACK AT THOSE PHOTOS MAKE ME WANNA UNWIND TIME...

FEL.JACOB.ME

TASHA.JOCELYN.JESSIE.FEL.ME.AMELEA

*OOPPHS!*

[2006]

US IN JAMMIN ROOM

FEL.ME.IIENA.Q

[2008]

ANANSA.FEL.ME.Q

[2007]

JOEY.FEL.ME.YUNA

KRISTINE WEDDIN @ ORCHID COUNTRY CLUB

[2007]

TASHA KEIRA.ME.ANDIQ RAYYAN @ RP

[2007]

FEL.ME.YUNA

[2007]

FEL&ME

PON SCH DURIN O'LVLS

[2007]

2009-03-06T23:40:00.001+08:00

BACK THEN @ STARBUCKS CWP - 2007

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NOW @ STARBUCKS SSC - 2009

met fel and chuck up @ yishun ystd.
joey yuna jacob q anansa arrived at a later time.
and some of chuck's frens too..

im glad that we did meet up even if its for awhile...

i love u girls!!!

and not forgetting my bing-gan (biscuit)-jacob too
((:

2009-03-01T19:59:00.000+08:00

Saturdayy- 28.02.09
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Went for cambodia meeting. Had our presentation and teaching done.
Fel tham called th moment i reached home. Ask me out.

Meet her and walk around town n shop.
Oh oh we ate lots of food too!!!
And not forgetting we were so horny abt a particular actor
till we cant control our STEAM-ness and laughter!!
i love her!

Todayy-01.03.09
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Jog with 2nd sis from CHR to Chong Pang..
Rest n had lunch at 1st sis home and went over to fel's place to go out with her mom,

Fernanda (her small sis) and Louis( her brother).

Its been so long since the last time i saw them..
haahha!!
and not surprise they mention that i put on weight..

HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!
i know im FAT!!
LOL... At least im not alone..
Cute little BABY DOG puts on weight.
And Louis too..
by right he suppose to lose weght since he's in NS.. LOL.

WELL eventually we went out without him. he's tired.

Walk ard SSC. Then accmpny Fel eat STEAMMYYY hokkien mee
at opposite and separated frm thr.

Brother fetch me there and together with both my sister
to catch the movie outlander at amk hub.

2009-02-22T02:40:00.010+08:00

Happyy 24th B'dayy Soo Wen Xiang ;

Junior (:

Those times when we'r still close, we would disturb one another at VB kitchen..
While u were smokin with my brother behind the kitchen, u wld always threaten me by saying tht u told my brother we went out together.... *hahahha*

Catch some movies during our off days..

(remember u told me to pyscho walter to change same off day as u? hahas..)

Going for late night supper after work....

Riding me back home..

Disturbing u while u were cookin those authentic dish till u pissed off.. ahhahs!

Damm i miss those idiot moments.. hahas..

Well thank u so much for everything....
Hope tht we'll contact again one dayyyy.........

happy birthdayy junior... (: i wish u all the best in life..may all ur career dreams come true as a higher rank chef in time to come..maybe a Sous Chef.. And lastly may u find the right malay girl just for you....

2009-02-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

Cambodia meeting yestd and todayy morning.

LIFE HAS BEEN SO HECTIC N TIRING...

Stupid projects! Need to do a case study on patient in the hospital.. abt their medical diagnosis..
types of medicines to be served...intervention....past medical history and all shits!!

goodnesss!!!!!!!!! almost can die liao..!!

CASE STUDY is one thing..
CAMBODIA TRIP is another one hell of a thing...

PURPOSE OF MY TRIP THERE....
*is to set up an open walk in clinic for the cambodian people as we attend to their cuts/wounds.
*set up a class to teach basic hygience,nutritional,english n etc..
*build hut houses
*plant coconut trees
*cook food for them
*charity some clothes
*plan sport activities for them
*perform spore cultural show for them to watch
& etc................

CAN U JUST IMAGINE JUST FOR A DAY, U'LL BE TREATING 200 CAMBODIAN WOUNDS.
By then when u return back to the hotel, u'll collapsed..

and i'll be bck in spore with dark and tanned skin... hahhahah!!

oh dear..... i just hope i'll lose some inch...
i'll be more then delighted....

2009-02-14T21:06:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAYY TO ALL TH LOVESS..

Had my cambodia meeting in the morning till afternoon.
Planned to go to Haji Lane with Ron,Vikk, Siang Ann,Rayyan and Rudy yestd nyte but was postponed..
*Damm!! *
Well anywayy we can always mit up for a barbeque on Ron's B'dayy..

HAPPY BIRTHDAYY TO JOVIS!!! ;

my ex-assistant manager @VB which b'day falls on 12.feb.09

2009-02-11T20:28:00.000+08:00

Met Siang Ann (SA) up @ 1900,yishun..
Been quite sometime didnt catch things up with him since he lost his phone or rather i shld say went M.I.A... LOL! Went to library to search some books for both of us and had our dinner at 925.. We talked abt our past sch dayys and the career tht we wanna pursue in future..
I force SA to make a deal with me tht he'll bcome a lawyer in future and therefore have to pursue further studies, degree in law and to keep a clean record....
But with the influence of Ron ard him, it wont be tht easy.. hahhaha!
I've done my best as a close good fren of him. Gave him my fullest perception and motivation.
So its all in his hands and mentality. EITHER he will work towards it or do wht he usually does;
give up half way thru with negative mindset..

Made our way to yishun interchange to take 856 bus.
And we split half way thru the bus journeyy..
He stops @ sembawang camp to book-in while i stop @my usual house bustop.

2009-02-08T12:59:00.000+08:00

2009-01-31T21:21:00.000+08:00

Was on msn with Ron Lim ystd night after so long..
He requested for a mit up todayy for lunch or dinner just to catch up with on another.
Ask crow(vikk) to tag along and meet Ron up at yishun.
Rudy joined us at a late time and coincidentally bump onto shadrach...
WOW! He's really a grown up and changed boy now...
HAHAHAH!!
He's dressing has changed too..no more anjexx...hahhaha!!
He stayed with us for 20 mins before he head to elsewhr.
We talked our shiits out and gossip and stuffs!
AND the stupid thing was , shadrach pop out the stupiest question!!!

'' Ehhh......... where's that Eswaran ahr........?? ''

All of us gaf him a stupid stare and said -Are u dumb or what??!!

Everyone has a physical changes in them but the attitude will always remain the same..
Our fucked up attitude!! 4/8 mah... LOL!

Head home as SA didnt turned up.He's sleepin at home,tired frm camp.
Rayyan fetched us in his mummy's car, he alreadyy pass his driving test while Ron continue to hang around with SA's ginas..

HAIX.. still the same old Ron with the same old habit of his..
SAME TYPICAL AH-BENG.

Rayyan drive us for short drifting @ champions way;the road near chr and sports sch.
with safety belts on, we had a few rounds of drifting. thank god nothing happen to his mom's car...but my mac burger were bein squash by heavy butts!!

2009-01-09T19:45:00.000+08:00

Oh Well well welllll...

i miss those times..

2008-06-09T21:43:00.000+08:00

WORK

Finally get to change my work shift at buona vista outlet aftr much helped frm my asisstnt manager;Jovis. She managed to persuade my manager; Walter.. *gahahha!*
I jus wanna haf a break frm workin at the East Coast outlet.. its tiring! If i work thr, my shift always ends until closin at 1am! And its a lethargic period of time for me esp when i haf to wrk aftr sch.. But my shift at buona vista is only for a few days thou and th rest of th dayy i'll b at eastcoast and weekends at lillicafe.

Todayy, finally after not workin at bouna vista outlet for 1&half mth, i return thr to wrk and i was elated to see those present smile.. Even th chinese dishwasherman. lol. Excutive Chef Alvin told me tht he was findin for me at east coast as he misses me but i wasnt thr. I was havin my off dayy.. So sorry Chef Alvin.. They were talkin abt all th things tht i wld do when i enter th kitchen bck then in th past..hahas..things like comin in to top up salt n pepper,bring n makin drinks for them at th bar,comin in to wash my hand at oni 1 particular sink,askin for parmesan cheese, askin for th meanin of all th french n italian crusine/food, askin wds th soup salad n pasta of th dayy n stuffs.. hahhahahas.. This is partially th reason y i wanted to wrk thr. I simply miss n love them.. and i miss their scumptious food! I haf to admit tht i was impressed tht th restaurant wordrobe which i were incharge of were well keep ; neat n clean while i was away. And same goes to th office..work there for lunch time and in th evenin head to matrix buildin for event which i were put to in-charge of. Th stupid wine cork broke into half and th other half is stucked at th wine's neck. damm!! Tried to take it out but my wine opener were kinda lil faulty. This caucasian guy was lookin at me struggling and he helped me. damm!! Tht was embarassing!! Goodness!! Im like a silly moronic ass thankin him couple of times.. Thanked god he came to rescue or else this angmoh lady who has been cravin for red wine didnt get to drink. Huge thanks to u Sir!

Anyway okayy okayy its late gotta slp now.. workin tmr at east coast til 1 am..

*DEAD*

2008-03-10T13:15:00.000+08:00

It was a successful grand opening for our " playground@Big Splash "
(east coast at former big splash) ystd.
th floor was packed with VIPs and media guest along with theirs sophicated cameras hangin around their necks; producing flashes evry minute.Famous local artist like Mark Lee were thr too.

Reach thr at 9am with Wei Boon,FangYi,Ralph & some othrs.
began setting up for th grand openin which will b at 5pm.
set up table tops n skirtings, arranged flowers which were given by sponser companies,champanged wine beer glasses and stuffs..
after done with tht,our supervisor my brother do a lil briefing to some of th new-comer wrker.
vips n invited guest were invited to enjoy a sumptous food dinner buffet which compromise of samplings frm various f&b tenants such as indian times,seafood man,sushi tei,seafood international and the vista bistro.

th nyte end on a high note with celebratory ballons and firewrks.
th fireworks were awesome. evryone was awed still on th ground floor while staring up high at th sky.

every thing got done and settle ard 11pm +
frm thr went home with my brother. he drives me adn some other home.
we nearly got ourself in an accident while at BKE.
STUPID BROTHER! DRIVE WITH A SLEEPY EYE!!
thank god nth hpn.

2008-03-05T23:04:00.000+08:00

u nvr really mean ur word. u said u'll nvr turn bck but eventually u did.
i was hoping tht u wld speak it out to me but nvr did u.
we fought when we mit jus then.
u asked me stupid qns.
and u asked me wd was tht 3 permanent letter wrd on my wrist for.
i think its dumb of u to asked sarcastically with a pretentious happy tone.
to think tht i wldnt notices ur jealousy huh?
sorry, ure playing th 'indirect technic' wit th wrong gerl.

we haf to really split up and end it here.
to late to grief with regretness once im gone.

come what may.
i jus cldnt be bothered.

2008-03-03T23:12:00.000+08:00

its 3rd march!
YES! like finally!
my favourite date of all.i'll always wait for this date evry year.
i jus love this date so much. dont knw why.
its not because of 03.03.03... no! not bcz of dt..
but.... i jus don seem to knw why i love this 3 march so much.

i think i break the badluck chain for this year 3 mac.
i seems to be beaming all dayy long todayy...
serious! no kidding!!
hahahha!
isnt tht a good thing??!

evrything todayy was great! not a single agony,anger n frustration.
And th live band for todayy was awesome too.. thy played great music..
i was early for work todayy..
[40mins early out of a sudden!]
todayy's lunch is salmon fish!!
great!STEAM!!!
and i indulge myself with lots of vanilla bread pudding with chocolate syrup!
STEAM!!!
all thanks to yeo.he kpt a huge amnt of share for me.
i managed to escape myself frm cleanin bar to went home with yeo.
hahahs..[evil laugh]
shall clean tmr..

2008-03-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

Pitied Elson actuallyy..thou he may seem a lil @$#@$@ to us.
He talked n express out everything to me todayy.
haiz. i can understnd bein in his situation.
guess nxt week onwrds, im gonna do smtg abt it.maybe talked things out to Ralph n Wayne.Make em undrstnd Elson's position.
yes!mondayy irwan's gonna rtrn bck frm Lilliput while Norli is gonna go thr.
im gonna miss her-for 1 week..
soon, its gonna be my turn to b stationed at lilliput..
haiyoh will b damm borin!
oh yarh i realised tht todayy everybody seems to be so pampered,sweet n tryin to get close to me..
when i rched to wrk jus now;at th bar, Jovis was so happy when she saw me.
she was sayin " yay nisa!! u come alr!! "
while i was doin some drinks in th bar, Walter pat n stroke my head sayin
" my gerl, is evrything fine for u?dont forget to take ur dinner okayy "
As for Elson he kept 1 piece of choco dessert for me. Lawrence, he reserve n keep th american cheesecake for me.
while yeo cooked for me dinner..
hahasss..thou sat is a boring dayy, evrybody seems to b smiling todayy..
and i love to see it this wayy!!

2008-02-26T23:42:00.000+08:00

its 12am now and i jus got home....
feelng a lil worn off coz thr's 2 events n functions goin on todayy at a diff place.
rushing here n thr evry min n secs of my time.
since i was so tired,i station myself as th bartender n
at th end of th dayy cleaned th bar.
well todayy, i cnt take it.
i dislike the wayy tht 'someone' treated n behave towards me.
even my brothr ,lawrence nd alvin is begining to notice it.
so this is wd i said to tht some one when thr's oni me n him:
" Ni you nu peng le! Wei shen meh zhe yang zuo! "
he gaf a suprised face when i said tht.
while i gaf a speechless face n said this in a way of changin topic n walked off.
" Ni chifan le ma? wo e le ! "

2008-02-25T00:40:00.001+08:00

I didn't know this would create such a commotion.

Yeah whatever it is.

DONE.

but somehow i deserve an explaination.

2008-02-13T19:53:00.000+08:00

im so exhausted nd super superr busy lately..
firstly, i owe a sorryyy to 3 gerlS.

AZA- i'm sorryyy im not able to celebrate valentines wit u(my gay partner).we shall mit when both are free..
FELICIATHAM- YES!! i miss u too!!i'm sorryy i cldnt make it for th sentosa taunt thingy. i'll mit u don worry when im free.((:
TASHAKEIRA- i'm sorryy i won't be able to take th valentine's present tmr(thur). same goes for u too.. i'll take them soon.((:

well anywayy todayy i'v managed to achieved some stuffs..
quite glad wit myself. For th first tym im managing everything alone.
great first achievement. wow!!LOL!!
I'M ELATED!
Had belated Yu Sheng jus now with Fang Yi, Raff,Novice, n all but xpect for Walter...
Thou some of th salmon fell off to th floor,still its a relishment for us.
oh yes 'nd Mapel walnut cheesecake n tiramisu (signature mouth washing) for the desserts.

Well anywayy ..
HAPPYY ADVANCED VALENTINE'S DAYY
TO EVERYONE!!!!

Especially to some of my x-classmates
who always received handmade cookies n cards:
TASHA,FEL,VIKNESAN,ZURAIDAH,RON,RAYYAN,NINA,ANAND,
ESH,BALA,AMY,JOEY,JACOB,SHADRACH,KARTHIK n ....

IM SORRYYY THT THIS YR THR ISNT ANY OF UR FAV COOKIES FRM ME..
but in year to come,,,,," HOPEFULLY "

TO TH LOVE COUPLES OUT THR, CHERISHED UR MOMENTS WITH ONE ANOTHER...

((((((((((:

2008-02-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

has been superrr busy lately.....
especially when it comes to this coming mondayy again....
therefore i wont be posting any post often....

okayyy....lets summarised things up.
mondayy ; 4 feb
esh 16th prayer.
As planned,supposed to met up with ron&... at northpoint ard 6pm.
As i went online, ice(siang ann) asked to mit early for lunch.
BUT,a change of plan again..
siang ann text me saying tht ron 'nd zoe were !@#$#%$@%$%!!!!!-ING
lol.hahas..pitied him & rushed dwn.
head to 888 plaza to met th 3 of them. 30 mins ltr head up to cwp.
we walked ard n slacked at civic mac.
ron n siang ann talked abt their mischievious lifes,2012 worldend & ...etc..
while me n zoe laugh our ass out at them.then zoe began talkin abt esh nd thr is goes... we started talkin abt him. it feels odd having th 4 of us together without him ard. Usually he is thr.but not for tht day..
Waited for anand n the rest at B&S and off we go to lavender,esh temple.

its a 5-1o mins walked frm th mrt.th 4 of us(ron zoe me, ice) were th odd ones..
it feels strange!! first tym for ice,ron n me to enter a temple.
enter in,washed our feet and say our greetings to esh family.
th 1st person i looked for was esh mom.
went to her n she gaf me this teary eyes as she looked at me n hugged.
we sat on th floor while th indian priest did the prayers for 10-15 mins.
they were sending esh soul up above...dts wd thy say.
those who donated money are blessed n were given white ash powder to put across their forehead and a 'holy' water(i shld say) were poured onto our hands to drink.
we ate after tht. anand, esh bro n shadrach serves us.
things started to become sad after esh mom n dad talked to me before i take my leave. and also when esh's dad talked to ice.
their wrds has given a great impact to me esp ice.
he started to change as he step out of th temple.
and his anger towrds caleb's doings had bcome even worse.
he scares me frm thr on.
took th train home with ron,zoe,ice,viknesan,ranjeev n ....

MAY YOUR SOUL R.I.P ESH.
ENJOY IN TH AFTERWRLD.

tuesdayy
hasnt been at home.was away at aunt's place taking care of 3 kids.

only gets home on thursdayy morning coz its CNY n my family is celebrating it. As per normal.. exchanged mandarin oranges n received red packets.
We had yu sheng & family dinner.
went to my chinese aunt hse nd aunt betty too.
ate lots..duck,scallop n stufs..
as for dessert i ate cheng teng;home-made by aunt,and taiwan mochi which she bought thr.goodness i love tht mochi!!!!
day by day im gettin fatter liao!!!
tsk. tsk.tsk

*** happy birthdayy to amos nd belated to kristine(5thfeb). haf a gd rest n tc of urself n ur baby girl.

2008-02-03T19:32:00.000+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!
TH movie L:Change th world will b out in spore tis comin 21 feb!!!

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Tatsuya Fujiwara 'nd Ken'ichi Matsuyama
known as Light Yagami 'nd L in DEATH NOTE

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The plot picks up as aimless law student Light Yagami (Tetsuya Fujiwara)
discovers a mysterious notebook in the middle of the street. Soon thereafter, Light
discovers that if he writes a name in the notebook, that person will instantly
die (generally of a heart attack). Of course it doesn't take long for Light to
realize the extraordinary power he now holds, and before long he hatches a plan to
rid the planet of crime by scribbling the name of notorious criminals in the pages
of the powerful notebook and make the world a safer place for decent citizens
everywhere. But Light isn't alone in his mission, b'cause his new
companion Ryuk - a flying god of death who only Light can see nd who also
happens to be the true owner of th notebook - is always there to egg him on nd
get a little laugh frm th criminal holocaust. Over the course of the next few
weeks, Light does awy with millions of nefarious baddies and th global crime
rate drops by seventy percent. Still, the police aren't too happy that a regular
civilian seems to be taking the law into their own hands. Perhaps the only person
capable of discovering Light's true identity is L (Kenichi Matsuyama) - a brilliant
teenage detective with a taste for sweets and remarkable deductive reasoning
skills.When the police chief (Takeshi Kaga of the hit television series Iron Chef)
- who also happens to be Light's father - is assigned the task of unmasking th
elusive killer, things really start to get interesting. A fast paced, goth-infused,
cat-and-mouse thriller, Death Note was followed at the box office by the equally
successful sequel Death Note: The Last Name just a few short months later.

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KEN'ICHI MATSUYAMA or knwn as L in th movie DEATHNOTE

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2008-01-31T20:28:00.000+08:00

Had to run some errands for mum todayy...
While rudy had to run some errands for himself n his dad's errands too..
Mit him up n get mums thingy done n over with n next was his dad's errands and ended with his..
We saw sanjeevan n asked him to tag along but he cant.he's runnin his errands too.. his bills...
We catched up with each other abt our classmates whereabouts..
We were so surprised.We haf to admit tht we don blame them for ending up lik tht.Even on results dayy at th end of evrything, Mdm Anu had a long talked wit me n aida and she told us tht partially we're not to blame for getting this kind of results.
We were indeed damm suprised tht even those nerdy,pay-attention bookworms didnt do well...
ppl like hui lin,nazirah,jason,yong ting,nazirul n .....
thy are expected to end up somewhr good but no thy didnt..
mdm anu says tht most of th teachers gaf a feed back saying tht this year paper were unexpected n harder compared to all past previous years.
haiss..so things are done we cant turn bck but to jus accpt and move on..

wtf!!!!!
i've been staying home for th whole tym long jus for u and now this week i jus went out n u'r alr givin me shiets!
i've jus recover from my inferior complex thingy and im sure u noe hw pressurised i felt exactly...
and now!!!
wth is th matter with you!!!!!
is it because i didnt help u at wrk???!!!!!!
u are being unfair u noe tht!!!
fucked to life n holidayys alryt!!!!!
think wdever u want.god is on me n one dayy hopefully he'll clear ur doubts n make u realised th truth..
al these while i showed u love n care ...
and in return this is wd i get....!!!!???!!!
thank u!!!

2008-01-30T22:52:00.001+08:00

Out for lunch with Ice (Siang Ann,SA) todayy...
Ate at khatib along wit Alan ; SA's fren..
WOW!! Aftr so long finally we met again.... He's still th same old Ice but with oni one thing new..thts his tattoo.He had a tattoo!!!
lol! noob him!say tht im still short!
Well.. ice handed me a notebook containing song lyrics.He wrote a song for esh by using th dear god rythmm.. I read it n wow!im impressed..
But ice!!!!!! in tht lyrics, whr is ur 'part' then!!!???? lol.
After done with eating,alan head back to sch half wayy
while me nd ice crapped all shiet out.... It was a meaningful dayy thou.. Get to noe lots of stuffs frm th past which i didnt get to knw abt it all these while...
We'r simply laughin our ass out like silly fools..
Basically all thanks to him for th cause of laughter..lol!
Recalling each n every moments tht each one of us had in th past...
Including th presents dilemma were being poured,shared & discuss between us; lik thou we were some kind of a private investigator tryin to crack,investigate SOME problms..lol,Siang Ann u knw wd i mean..
HOHO!
We then realised hw fast tym flies...
its been 2 years...........till now.....and unxpcted thing hpn.....
haixx...cant help to think of th tym we 3 had..th 2 bros n th small little sister..
Ice, in ur new blogpost u state thr tht he was th first deepavali thingy for u to go n stuffs..Well same goes for me too...
His hse was th first deepavali hse for me to get invited to.
):

Walked our way frm khatib to yishun mosque thr.
While walking,ice did his beatbox n sing to me some songs..
lol! hidden talent which i jus discover!
And oh yarh ice!!! i hate u coz u made me sing! omg! dt was lik my biggest fear to guys! shiet u!! okayy-okayy i was jus jokin!
Hmm well i took th 965 bus opp mosque while ice headed home.

★ Thks Ice for makin this dayy hpn aftr so long.((: ★

Head home n bump into azhar.Chat awhile abt our shietty O's at my lift thr & suddnly came tht guy..
" oh shiet!! " ..
I recall gettin distrb by him & bumpin onto each othr lots n tons of tym..
Each tym wen zuraidah waited at my playgrd to go sch tghtr,we'll alwys see him..its lik we get off frm our blk at th same tym n we get bck to our blk to head home at th same tym too..
With only 2 things in common..
1st: he doesnt knw her name n she doesnt knw his name tooo.
2nd: atfr we bump into each othr n walked far, eithr us will take a sneak to look bck n will caught eithr one lookin back at each othr..
and we'll simply show some kind of an embarrassin gesture..
..LoL..
I didnt knw tht he knew azhar too..
He interupted our convo n said hi to azhar.
For th first tym aftr so long staying under one roofs, finally we talk.
Azhar head home while me n him get inside th lift.Automatically he pressed my liftstorey number without askin.wow.He take notice huh.
I jus kept mumm th moment i get in & he asked hw did i fair 4 O's.
We talked a lil n jus as i step out frm th lift, this is wd he say:

His hands were pressin those lifts button to kip it open while sayin
" Hey,wait up.im ur neighbour & i don evn noe ur name.
So wht's ur name? "
i stopped,turn,gaf a smile n said
" emm. Nysa. "
him: okayy
me: and u're.....?
him: Daniel.
me: ohh-ookayy. (slowly turnin front to walk)
him: bye Nysa. hope to talk to u again.
i half turned,laugh n waved " bye Daniel "

Guess from now on if we'r to bump again, we'll b in talkin terms.

2008-01-25T00:18:00.001+08:00

chat wif ice almost th whole dayy todayy...
talked abt esh..those shietyy craps tht we 3 used to haf..
flashed bck abt chalet moments.
ice hated baron but loves heineken while esh loves baron.
esh introduce ice to cigarrs.
moments when we 3 were at th beach lookin at th moon, ice disturbing me n him..
and thy 2 calling me small little grl.
along with th wishes in th bottle tht we made...i wonder wht was esh wish.
we recalled th marsiling moments too..
when ice came dwn wif esh under my blk n we lepak...
hahahs!!those were th past..

silly ice fucked esh upside dwn while was msn-ING wit me.
he shouted esh name out loud lik retards fella offering him ciggies.
thanked god his mom werent at home if not he'll b admitted to th IMH!
HOHO!
well tht fucker is thr at his hse.

at nyte i called micheal dwn.thou he hated baron,he bought n drank it on esh behalf.i drank some on behalf too. Was told tht esh soul talked to his mom. by saying,''woit!! mumsae..."
hahas
esh told this someone th story abt his accident n asked independent not to b naughty.
micheal told me abt esh appearance during thaipusam too..
esh,moron.... u better appear when i mit up with ice. before 3 feb!

when online again at late nyte with siang ann(ice).
he cheered me up with his singing talent..hahhaha!
he sang thru msn.songs lik chris daughtry,call-secondhand serenade,
dear god-avenged sevenfolds,some vintage songs n n n oh yarh tht girrrrrrlyyy mannn song hahhs..its an indian thriller song..hohoohoh!!
ice created a short song 4 esh too.....
dts th last song he sang b4 im off to slp...
thanks Siang Ann.....

2008-01-22T15:47:00.000+08:00

i rmbr this song... Esh said its for me...and this song was being played last 2 years at fel's birthdayy party;dxo....
he was outside with benny tht tym..while i was sittin on th table with his daddy(jboy) n his brothr.. then this song were bein played, he waved at his brothr to ask me to look at him..when i looked at him,he point his fingers to me nd askin me to hear it.... now wen th song is bein played all tht is left was th flashback of him...

i was checking thru my friendster inbox,tryin to clean it up and surprisingly i found this.(below)It was a message send frm esh on 26 may 2006 @ 7:07 pm.
tears came again when i read it......

"I Love You
I never really knew you
you were just another friend, but when I
got to know you, I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories that would only make
me cry, I had to forget my first love and give love
another try. So I've fallen in love with you, and I'll
never let you go, I love you more than anyone, I just
had to let you know. And if you ever wonder why, I
don't know what I'll say, but I'll never stop loving you
each and every day. My feelings for you will never
change, just know my feelings are true. Just
remember one thing..........
I Love You!!!!!

EsHaK "

2008-01-22T12:11:00.000+08:00

ESH,ESWARAN,ESHAK STICK.......

Those will b th names tht all of us will missed calling!! WHY!!
Y ,KALKIESWARAN ELANGOWAN!! y did u leave ur small little gerl dwn here??
hu still nids guides n scoldg frm u??!!u were thr 4 me when i nided but now..nt nemore...
few mths ago wen u mit me at my stairs,u said tht u'll always b thr 4 me when i nided to pour anything out..
u told me to promise not to do those stuffs anymore and i said
"no!!! i'll see how.."
i used to rebell alot to u.now tht u'r no longer here,i gif u my wrd,i PROMISE u i wont do those stuffs again!!
u took great care of me while i was so called'drunk' at dxo,u bring me to toilet nd wake me up nd wash my face.
even when im sick u came outside my stairs n bought me food.
u run toghtr w me at th 157 carpark when i nid to release all my stress,rmbr?
Aftr sch we lepak at 556 wit all th INDEPENDENT'S FAMILY..
me,fel & mirza helped u in ur art n stuffs. Rmbr our ponteng moments? We had breakfast at ur hse n coffeeshop each tym we ponteng class.
Rmbr all those sneaky sneaks in??(: tht is so silly of us.
Hide behind doors n stuffs. Tht cake which is
everyones fav during ur apa's birthdayy will b my fav cake of all!!
Those messages tht u asked anna(ur brothr) to convey to me while u were being held by th police still lingers thr in my mind..
I miss all those moment! Now, thr wont b anymore!!!! )));
I jus simply regret 4 rejecting u each tym wen u ask me to come dwn bpp,under ur blk n under my blk..
Now its too late to u-turn. My ring, thy are still wit u.U're suppose to mit up n return me,but it didnt came true.
Our book,i'v yet to know whr u put or buried it.
U said ur eyes will tears each tym if u read it..

Tht name E-S-H-A-K,which u created last 2 years,
I wonder does it still mean th same old meaning???
Eswaran's Stolen Heart........
If lets say it still does,i really feel guilty..
i've hurt and i've let u dwn alot!! U noe tht!!! "Angel & Demon",rmbr??
im truly sorrrryyy!!
Please forgive me once again esh...

James & Priya; are thy thr at ur funeral??
Are thy back frm overseas??
I really hope i get to see them one day.
Frankly,for all this while,James was th one hu has been telling me all those secrets.. Forgive him pls.
He didnt mean to break ur promises but he haf left wit no choice but to tell me cz u refuses to see the doctor and get ur operation done.
U said u rather wait till ur death date.
James noes tht u'll only listen to me n not him or priya.
U lied to me!!! U didnt actually went for th operation ryt!! U were not supposed to drink all those drinks to prevent it frm bleeding evn more but still u do..
why did u lied to me esh???
If u haf gone 4 th operation, u wld haf been strong enuff 'nd survived..
I failed to promise James n Priya!!!!!!!!
I must haf let them dwn!!!!!

U ponteng sch WITHOUT my knowing jus to settle things wit one this guy
hu disturbs me. I didnt ask u to but u did it 4 my safety..
Thank u esh!!! Even at 169...rmbr abt Hary?
I owe u lots ESH!!! But now,hw u tell me??
Hw am i gonna pay u bck ur gd deeds??!!
Y do u haf to leave us soo soon!! it un xpected!!
u told me tht u'r immortal rmbr??!!
Now u left us w nth. All tht we last had were ur last msges,phonecall,msn,sight&touch.

Th 157,169: anand,me,shadrach,kartik,vimals,puvan,will b EMPTY without *U*

th 556 family: anand,me,shadrach,kartik,rayyan,felicia,zuraidah,huda,viknesan,bala n ect.. Will b EMPTYwithout*U*

Even th 4na8 'nd 5na2 will b EMPTY without our mr bean,stick n .....

Eswaran!!!!!! we will miss u!!!!!!!!!!
For 6 years,it wasnt a mistake 4 noeing u.
Now tht u'r gone,pls let ur soul rest in peace.
Don worry abt ur apa & mumsae.. me,th independent n puvan will visit ur mum n dad. Esp during deepavali..
do visit home too alryt!!((((:
I cnt bear to see ur mum lik dt..Esp when she has uses her own hand to feed me rice in my mouth. jus lik our birth mother.
i hope u hear th voice in me when i was lookin at u duriing ur funeral..
Rmbr u miss tht someone?? ur drms r coming true. U'll b seein him..

Independent,puvan,fel,zuraidah,huda,viknesan,rayyan,bala will miss u lots!!!
including her too=
siti.khairunnisa.octavia

"Eshak,u changed my life.And i owe u a huge thanks!"

2008-01-21T09:22:00.000+08:00

IN A MEMORY OF
OUR DEARLY BELOVED
GOOD FREN,BROTHER,LOVER,EX.......

KALKIESWARAN ELANGOWAN

MAY UR SOUL BE GONE RESTING IN PEACE AFTR THIS 15DAYS...........
MEMORIES N DAYS THT WE ONCE HAD WITH U WILL ALWAYS B CHERISHED & REMAIN THR
IN OUR HEARTS & LIVES....

Teen dies after being flung from car in crash
The crash was so horrific that one of the vehicles was crushed beyond recognition and broke in two.esh n geevan were in tht car.

A LATE-NIGHT crash between two cars along Mandai Road was so horrific that one of the vehicles was crushed beyond recognition and broke in two.

An hour later, at 1:03 am on Saturday, front-seat passenger
KALKIESWARAN ELANGOWAN was dead.

The 18-year-old had just completed his 'O' levels and planned to study marine engineering at a polytechnic here.

His driver, 19, was uninjured, but the 17-year-old sitting in the back seat fractured his left leg.

The woman driving the other car, a 24-year-old, suffered scratches on her chest.

A 52-year-old bus driver who wanted to be known only as Mr Ang saw the accident and told Shin Min Daily News that both vehicles were speeding towards Woodlands Road at the time.

The first car, which Mr Elangowan was in, mounted a kerb before hitting the tree, he said.

The car behind crashed into it before slamming into the tree as well.

Both passengers of the first car were apparently flung out on impact, Mr Ang said.

Mr Elangowan's distraught family members were there to identify his body at the mortuary on Sunday morning. He had an older brother a younger sister, and lived with his family at Petir Road in Bukit Panjang.

They said that they did not know who he was out with and where he was before the accident.

2008-01-17T08:22:00.001+08:00

me 'nd yuna we had long nyt talks till 4 am jus now...
can someone tell me when was th last tym we had long talks till dawn??!!

few months ago!!!!

hahhah!
she has lots n tons of story to update to me...
hearing her talking so engrossly makes me laugh thinking how silly n cute she is..
hahhaha!
we must mit up 4 lunch wif kak athena soon okayyy!!!!!!
i deadly miss her!!!

oh yarh!!! Q!!!!
SOORRRYY THT YUNA DISTRB UR SLP...
cz she was laughing n talkin out loud...

geeeeesshheees!!!

2008-01-15T20:50:00.001+08:00

.out with aida & tasha.

it was a random outing i haf to say..
planned to mit up w tasha to take money for carnival then dt dayy by coincidence
aida msged me askin to mit her at interchange.

so we 3 mit up missing each other...

2008-01-12T20:22:00.001+08:00

I was a duck for once
waddling frm side to side ..

lost;heading nowhere jus me n my footsteps..

leading my way thru..

thru th creepy,thick,horrorfied jungle of mine along wif th erriness in me.

y is it mine.?simple. i created it.

every steps i take,every move i made,i was chased by th clamour of sounds..

my ears;thy haf been rotating clockwise n anti .

trying to detect th sound.

each tym i moved n get away,th more closer it is..

ran like a cougar..

thts wd i did keep running wit endless mind.

don't knw again whr is my destination.

im a lost child in my own jungle;a lost child in a wrld full of obstacles

i stop n take a rest as i cant held my breath any longer.

aftr th whole long run,new air is needed for me to breathe.

im suffocating!

gasping continuosly looking here n thr,my eyes came across something.

i frown n stared intensely

trying to get an accurate sight .

thr's an open gate wit a person stationing by it.

welcoming me wif open arms.

along wif tht widely smile which were smiled whole-heartedly.

filled wif th emotional impact of overwhelming surprise or shock,

i walked doubtfully towards,

wif only 1 thing in my mind:

is tht an angel send by heavenly above?

i recalled praying hard in pain each nyt.

crying tears blood lik never b4.

is tht angel th answer to my prayer?

is tht gate th path which i prayed n asked u to lead me to..?

god im clueless wif wht u gaf me.

i prayed to u n seek ur help n guidance but u gaf me this instead.

yes!i haf to admit.

im thankful for wd u gaf.it went smoothly jus within a days.

things in us is common;surprisingly.

even our future.

but ..

god im sure u are aware

tht i haf doubt for only one thing.

please god.

help me overcome it.

i fear of surroundings.

gif me ur blessings n guidance for every choice i decide.

12 januuary

21:42

++ nysa.octavia

2008-01-08T10:20:00.000+08:00

oh my godd!! wtf!! i'v been eatin tons of rubbish lately!!

whts dt??
thts chocolate,vanilla n cappucino ice-cream
wif whipped cream above!!

god noes hw fattenin it is!

happy birthdayy mummy!!
its her bdayy on th 6th jan!
well thts dad w uncle joe n aunty roha

i ate all those! exotic chocolate cake n strawberries, ice-creams n whipped cream!!

thts th kids!! which i've been takin care each one of them since small.
espcially this adorable one below!!

well aniwayy this pic was taken in royal plaza

aunt brought me to royal plaza on th 5th jan..
wht were we doin thr?? eat!!!
its a buffet!! and i ate lik pigs!!!
serious!im not lying!!
i'll name u wd i ate...:

pizza
pai tie
bee hoon
laksa
kebab
salmon
crap
oyster
crispy prawn
otak-otak
chocolate,vanilla n strawberry ice-cream wit hershey,rainbow n nuts topping
chocolate mouse
varieties of cake
cookies(including ginger breadman cookie)
fruits(pineapple,honeydew,watermelon n orange)
muffins
scones wif vanilla custard
salad
marshmallow,pineapple n grapes dip on chocolate fondue
chinese popiah
hot cheng teng
grilled chicken
porridge
and 2 cups of plain water

whoah!! i gulp lots of food thr!!!
honestly i haf to sayy... its heaven!!!

2008-01-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2008 EVERYONE!!!

HOPE ALL UR RESOLUTION WISH DO COME TRUE!!!

:)))))))))))

2007-12-28T11:01:00.000+08:00

i felt tht i nid some newly air to inhale n new environment to walk thru for th tym being.. therefore i went online hoping tht thr's ppl lik rudy or huever 4 me to rely on....but i found iiena..thrfore ask her out. moreover i rmberd tht i owe her an outing..hahass..better get those promises done wit...
waited 4 my brothr to get home.nid a lil xtra cash.aint wanna see iiena feelin starved th whole entire dayy..
decided to haf a trip to vivo *coz somebody hvnt go thr yet!!*
so we mit up.wanted to buy mummy's carpark thingy but th q as effing long..
change of mind n getting it tmr... head to cwp to bought some drinks n potatoe chips..coz i noe iiena havnt had any food 4 breakfast yet..munch it while in bus.
once landed at harbourfront,had our lunch.bought 2sets of western food.
and b4 we head home, we ate ice kacang without th kacang..hahahs!
we both hate th kacang!!! ewwww!!

thanks iiena 4 th wonderfuls dayy... thanks 4 ur beloh-ness on tht dayy which actually brings out tht laughter in me. its been long since i'v ever laugh sincerely lik tht.. i appreciates ur lending ears..
and iiena..dont'chu cry n b sad ayt... rmbr..u'r not facing it alone....

thanks iiena 4 th day...:))

*oh yarh..thr's this person hu called me dt day ard 6pm+...
to dt person, i wanted u to noe tht we'v longed to b w u... honestly, we wanted to mit u ard 10+ alone but u were wit ur frens... :( if u haf doubt whtr are u th one whom im referin to, here's anothr clue..
u called me n ask whr am i...n u said tht u n ur anothr fren misses me..
yes! its u!!!!!

let me walk u thru my dayy......

murder scene

scatty mood

there goes me
lunatic

2007-12-26T16:51:00.001+08:00

DARE TO DREAM!!

2007-12-26T12:13:00.000+08:00

well..i didnt post any entries 4 th past few dayys..
so let me jus summarised it..
hmm nth much is goin on...stayed at home most of th tym..
but thr is also a day whrby i mit up wit sis n my brothr to repair stuffs n purchased some groceries for mum to cook durin th christmas eve...
thts a normal routine tht mum would always do all these years.. she will cook turkey or eithr ham for us to eat...

so on th 24, went out to mit 2nd sis at her bustop.
she was super-duperrr late! once she reached,went to 1st sis hse to take th stuffs which she wanted to gif me..frm thr we 3 head to our marsiling home,toghtr all of us helped mum n dad with th cookin..both my sistr help out on th makin of coselaw while 4 me, i sliced th potatoes n coated it wit a coat which is a mixture of cornflour,eggs,chille n etc.....
mum baked turkey with my fav black pepper n barbeque sauce..

set tables, plates , fork n spoon n ....
thr we are enjoying our scrumptious feast..
had our family dinner toghter tht night..
thou its a family dinner, th oddness among all siblings were rathr quite obvious.
esp btwn my brothr n step sistr..

my family is really torning apart eversince tht hari raya haji incident...
i cn nvr 4get tht day...it was a hard day 4 me.. seein my step sistr n my brothr both wanting to kill each othr n seein mum gets pushed by step sis..
tht is th worst fight tht has ever hpn in my family.....

i've alr lost my both sistr...and now wht??im gonna lose my brothr too??

2007-12-21T13:26:00.001+08:00

happy hari raya haji to all th muslims out thr...
and to feliciatham,

HAPPY 17th BDAYY!!
:)))))))))

thanks 4 everything...memories of u n me in th past will always lingers thr in
my mind...

moments of us not goin sch.....,
and thr we are playin at toys r us
hahahas

th outing on this pic will i ALWAYS rmbr..
coz u embarrassed me by shouting out happy bday
to me inside th train!!

bein togthr wit u both outside n....

in class is much appreciated..

thank u felicia tham th great!!

im sorry i cldnt make it 4 ur bdayy.. due to th festives...
hope u'll understand..
wish u all th enjoyment n laughter on ur special day
and also to both u n chuck...
may th two of u b toghtr 4 eternity...
:)))

2007-12-19T10:17:00.000+08:00

its wednesday today n tmr is festives day n fel's bday..
yestdayy was results day 4 th n'level ppl..
tym flies real fast huh...
and middle of next month is our o'level results....
feeling fcuking stress n pressurized for now!! eversince dt tym when amir n i were bringin up th topic abt FUTURE,COURSES N RESULTS!!!

DAMM IT!!! whr am i heading aft this..!!?? whr!!!
th feelin of regrets started to grew in me..along with fear...
hang on th phone wit tasha.. th conversation is basically regardin us emphasizing on our next step in life.

this yr n'level batch results was quite a sad n suprising news..
sasha,shaiful merely jus make it.amus too;slightly better..
but one of them suprised me.tot he'll make it nvr did he..
same goes 4 anand n bala.i was a pity tht thy retake again n yet thy missed it by a point more..i think its due to their f&n..thy drop tht subject.

haix.. i really hope tht thy will make a wise choice on whrevr thy intend to
proceed frm here..and i hope thy'll kip striving n stood up bck thou i noe some of them alr had couple of falls n setbacks.

whtevr it is..... remember tht u'll bcome stronger with every fall tht u'v had.
learnt frm it & avoid th mistakes tht u made.

well......anywayy im glad dt im feeling much better now..
wasnt feeling good for th past few days... i vomitted in th middle of th nyt continously till th nyt of th next dayy toghtr along wit diarrhoea n menses n cramp at th same tym.. i was having a damm hard tym...

so... my plan for today is...... met q n yuna for th last tym b4 thy head off to malacca... will b missing them on msn..hahha..
each tym wen thy sees me online thy wld goes lik this
" kai!!!!!!!!!!!! kai!!! kai!!!!! hahahahahhahahah!!! "

hahhah... i will b missing them alot!!!!
to yuna; inoe u'll b missin ogy alot while u'r thr..so b4 u leave, do gif him a good phone call alryt..

to q; hahhass.. finally u'll b stress free while u're thr...hahaha..
and im sure u'll b missin tht phonecall of urs frm someone...hahhas...
but nah nvm..bear w it okayy both of u...

use this time to enjoy n laugh w mummy n daddy okayy...
do inform me once u get back here....
we will b waiting...

i'll pray tht ur journey to n fro will b safe n sound...

love u both...
:D

2007-12-17T19:34:00.001+08:00

had a dayy out wit andiq rayyan & tasha keira

though im not feeling well, i force myself to make it for tht day.
coz i'v gaf them my word..

2007-12-16T00:22:00.001+08:00

while th boys were busy jammin........................

this is wht faris,chuck cuz n seth were doin..

and us too...

this is wht we gerls are doin.....

happily takin pictures

at th same tym, bitching abt some sluts..

*** fQuraishia...thanks 4 bringin me aside so tht i cn pour evrything out to u...
lately u haf been thr 4 me all th tym..n ur presence is so much impt to me dt point of tym..thank u q!! don worry..i don hold grudges on u... n i love u..

2007-12-12T21:15:00.000+08:00

its ice bday!!!
happy birthdayy ice!!!:D

sasha called ystd..im fcuking suprised n wonder to myself why she called.
i mean...it is weird...in a good way...im not saying it in a bad way!!
so yeah i called her bck n she jus wanna noe hw am i n she intend to jus hang out w me b4 th arrival of TUESDAYY!!!! its th n'lvel results dayy!! nyhahhaas.. it mus b a scary moment for all of them i bet...i rejected her outin as i'v plan to jus stay home but somehow Q called me at a ltr tym beggin me to come dwn accmp her cz of this moronic siq...(i use moronic in a gd wae..)thrfore........okayyluhh..

met up w tedd,Q n we sat at starbucks along w sasha n veron.
(told them to tag along too).. hahhahhass.. recalling bck wht hpn thr reminds me of th DISGUSTING starbucks food... damm gross!! esp th fish! ooh god!!
but me n Q,we don gif a shiet n jus stuf those food in our mouth.

so thr i am jus sitting with sasha n veron viewing ppl's friendster n chatting w amir too using siq's lappy n Q with her ownself in her own world doin her own thingy using faris lappy..
while tedd too with his lappy in his music fantasy world..(i mean his hearing songs frm th lappy)... th lamest thing, th 3 of us q,tedd,me chat with each othr...
hahhahahahhas....

got home ard 7 plus n went online again and chat w amir..
we talked about our interest n experience..
chattin w him isnt a waste..he woke me up frm my slp..
he encourage me to start thinkin ahead 4 my future.
its good to hear tht we both share th common interest..
and whoahh!! i haf to say,im sure he's a good n talented art student!!
n a good singer too... thr's this song he wrote n sang ; PUSH ME TO DIE,
i listen to it th moment he send me n i haf to say its indeed a nice piece of song..its a relationship thingy kinda stufs...th first tym wen i listen to it,i was suprised tht it didnt even sounded malay...thou he has a dutch blood runnin thru his stream, i xpect his singin to haf a lil of th malay essense as u noe he does speaks malay.. but it didnt... wow !! amazing!!

thank u so much amir for all ur thoughts n motivating words n advises tht were spoken by u... indeed i'll start thinkin ahead frm todayy onwards...

** tedd...thanks 4 being such a great fren n person!! without u, i don think me n Q will b lik hw it is now..
**Q,honey..thanks 4 not kippin anithing frm me..

2007-12-10T17:42:00.001+08:00

was online jus now n jacob show me this pic...
omg!! it shocked me...
i seriously cnt recall wen in th world did we took this pic toghtr..
neither does he recall this pic too..
it must b a long LONG long..tym ago wen im havin dt kind of hairstyle...
but.. i lik it...
yeah so he send me this pic n here it is.. i post it....

wellll...................

jacob tan!!!
u r bein missed by octavia!!

2007-12-10T17:02:00.000+08:00

happy birthdayy elliott see:)))))))))

2007-12-10T16:59:00.000+08:00

my horoscope for 10 dec

The Bottom Line

The way other people are feeling will be obvious to you, so make the most of it.

In Detail

Your emotional sensitivity could be running a bit high today, and you could fall into a temporary super-self-conscious phase. So if you are convinced someone keeps staring at you, make sure you're not sitting under a clock! The way other people are thinking and feeling will impact you, but it should not unduly affect how you act. Get some distance from all these emotional influences. Instead, focus on the things that interest you the most. Get back in touch with people later.

2007-12-10T15:26:00.000+08:00

my migrain came bck agin!!
shitty shiets!!!
it attack'd my left brain while chattin w seth wen i got home jus den ard 8 plus..
thanks seth 4 tellin me wd to do

oh yeah my step sis crazy-ness came bck again. he fight w herman.(my brothr)
then her mouth starts to blabber out crappy wrds to mom..
AND SHE SCREAMS! AND SHE CRIES! AND SHE SCREAMS AGAIN..
(dts her normal routine)
mom tried to stop her but yet......as per normal... fails!
yeah so dad brings me n my brothr dwn to talk..
we tok our shits out till 4am.wen bck hm,slp n th nxt day tht is today,i've gotta wake up at 7am to go to lagun sari 4 my cousin sis weddin..

was extremely tired.had to entertain kids n ppl all tym long..
i played wit daniel ,ellishia n aniq most of th tym..

above: dad .ellishia (pic of her a yr ago)

and yarh! thanked god me n brothr came 4 todays function..
aftr sooooo many years haf past,finally my family mits back w my long awaited chinese aunt..
aunt betty.. we thot she'll nvr come bck frm australia..both mom n her cried..
aunty betty hugs me so tight!! n she kpt rubbin my cheecks..
th last tym i recalled seein her was during chinese new year..we came to visit her hse.
dt was when im still a small lil prematured kiddo...can see tht she misses us dearly thru her hugs n kisses to dad, mom,bro n me. it was by coincidence she is jefri(th groom) related aunt.so happy to see her!

as u noe i evryday lifes, positive n negative things occurs.well..dts was th positive thing durin tht occasion..while th negative thing is dt, mama was thr... tghtr with dt cb charlie chaplin guy;david. my both sis julie n radhiana tag along w em too..
fucker mama! hate her! y mus i see her!fine i noe its a weddin occasion but uncle eddy shldnt haf invite her! stupid uncle! purposely wana make dad boil up.well u'r playin w th wrong guy!
dad is still livin strong.n i cn see he don gif u fcuk abt dt shorty women! darn!hate it!
didnt entertain her n jus do my fcukin own business.

2007-12-09T00:25:00.000+08:00

out to cine todayy w emil,fiza,firman,q n yuna..firman was alil kanchiong as he was th oni boy..
ahahhss..thrfore he kol ppl up n finally siq cn accmpny him... i tot he cnt cz he told me tht he's goin imm to get fon n ppaid n then he's gonna head to hmv n starbucks civic at 4...
but evntually he turn up..hahas.gd thing he accpmy fiman.
man was a lil mooron today..he clever sia he..threaten me..aiyer but its okayy firman!!!
i cn threaten u bck!! ahahahahah!!
so we went to catch th movie

the tatootist!!!!!
its a cool movie i haf to say!!!!!
dammm cool...... but it wasnt tht really suprising cz siq went to tell me th story.
aiyo..spoil luh he.. sitting w him alil scary sia.. tok alone.. nyahahhaha..sorry siq..ahahaha.
okay enuf..
aft movie met up w tedd,faris n haqeem.went ska fest, n mit an,boy,bo,amir,wan ajip n .....
seein ska performance cn say wasnt my type.. my head didnt bang tht much.
im more into rock kinda stuffs.. more head bangs.. hahah.but i appreciates thou.

and oh yarh..........i bump onto my closest primary sch fren, alfian..
damm suprised!honestly, i didnt recognised him much..not wen i saw him lookin at me n i was lik sayin to myself "his familiar..i'v seen him somewhr..but wait i not sure"
then i said to him "eh wait. u?u errr.. wait. arhh arh tu tu sape tu..al, al, al... errrr...?"
then he said khairunnisa.. n i said arhhh alfian...!
hahahhass.. moron luh dt guy.say i short! ass luh u.don tok much!last tym u oso damm short!hahahs.asked abt each othr's life awhile n off we go..
alfian alfian....frm last tym till nw..still gelap. k i undrstnd last tym takraw n nw ns.hahks.
its been long we saw each othr.th last tym was wen err goin bck home tym frm sch...
at th traffic light near my hse.yeah dts th place whr we bump often.

sempat tadik berbual pasal zaman dulu.
still recall th naughty times we had bck then.aft sch lepak, takraw. me,khadijah,fika,hanim,ayu,salwa,sobri,zul,safuan n all...
those were th us... tok abt this make me miss my pri sch days!
he uhh always get picked on durin mother tongue..hahhss th mischievious boy!
ahrr yarh!!! elf was th name tht we kol him!!!cz of his ears! glad to see u. tc eh elf!!

also i bump into fad.(fadhil) tht horny dinosaur...ahahhas.. speak of th devil sia.me n anansa were jus tokin abt him n we bump into each othr.. i saw him n ii was lik ayyy u tht horny dinosaur n he was lik" yarh.. u th fel best fren ,nysa.. "hahahss.. so yeah saw him.

take 960 n wen home w haqeem.th rest yuna,q,tedd,faris,anansa n siq took th train.
**yuna n othrs;sorry 4 th sudden separation..
in th bus played bubble gum w haqeem n tok shits n crap.. pitied him luh.. he was yawnin th whole journey.. better rest haqeem!!

n yarh!!! i had loads of fun!!! love it!!
**kristine, pls b strong my gf... im here okayy.. don think so much.. think of ur baby's health kayy.. im here wen u nid me k..:D i love u !

2007-12-08T00:36:00.000+08:00

alarm rang but i was to exhausted n continued w my slp..
rang again n again n i ignored again n again...
final call ard 11 plus i rushed,wake up n switch on th lappy to went online.
jus as im done typin my passwrd, my sister wanna use th laptop.she said its only for a while.
BUT!! her awhile is damm long!i finally get to use it ard 1+..it was late by then..
ali was xpecting my presence todayy on msn.,.as promised..yestd didnt managed to went online while he's waitin n todayy,again....i was late.he alr headed 4 lunch.im sorry ali..
maybe perhaps monday i shall see u online..sorry to kip u waiting..

few mins ltr kristine called me.she sounded sad.she was lonely. she nid an accmpny.so met her up at cwp n headed starbucks..tok n chat n i succeed in makin her laugh all th tym..
she's havin a baby n its not a gd thing to see a mothr feelin sob all th tym.she nids some laughter too.. at starbucks,th oni wrkin ppl i noe thr is oni fahmi,anansa n sue..firdaus,siq,falah,boy,bo,an n emil came too ard 4+

fahmi told me tht aft wrk he is headin town to buy shoe n he asked me to accmpny him.
i agreed initially..then at a ltr tym i haf some problms n haf doubt whtr cn i..so i ask him to went w fiza since she also is headin thr 4 ska fest.but he doesnt wants it.asked y, he retorted this

fahmi : "huh! then oni me n her alone?"
me: "yarh..nth wrong wd. i cnt make it.since fiza don mind accmpny u den jus go w her uhh.."
fahmi: "huh..tknk uhh....aku sorang ngan dier.........................."
and i was lik uhh?? (confused face.dono wd he wants)

told me to wait 4 him til wrk end n we shall decide things..soo in th end,fiza went off 4 skafest wit an,firdaus,falah,boy n emil... n fahmi still forcing me to follow him evn aft i tell him tk sempat n stuffs...he's not only goin town but to toa payoh then to raffles then bck to town..isnt it hectic..?
ahahahhass.. so yarh i managed to brain wash him but den aft tht he insist of buyin shoe at old marsilin.. omg!!! i gaf up n tell him ; " fahmi,jgn buang mase fikir2.jus buy it tmr!" n things are done...he listen to me...thanked god!

saw yuna n mummy....walk tghtr n we separated at th traffic light. kristine n me went to have our dinner. off to hm frm thr..dt is ard 9+

2007-12-06T18:48:00.000+08:00

im at starbucks now slacking usin zul's lappy...and its lik WHOOAAHHH!!! its damm pack here.... gosh..!i want free drinks but!!!!!!!!!!!!th q is damm long!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh god!!!! arrrggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hmmm.... no drinks then... ahahhahss..
well anywayy met yani jus nw... n tghtr w her fren...hmmmmm hw do i describe it?????

errr....arrrr.... okayy im speechless!! ahahahhahaha!!
i felt so odd!!!! damm odd!! its lik thy r not my typ n im walkin w them... totally diff concept sia!!ahahhahass! okayy im sooo mean!!

hmmm.. so here i am nw w all th stuck addict maniac....
nyahahahhaha.. i 4get.. an gaf a new name 4 us...its th rejected stucks addict!!

hahahha..cool huh!! jyeah!! i like..

okayyy..gtg now.. gonna spent more tym tokin cock n rot myself w yuna,q,emil,farhan,firman,bo,zul,j,falah,haqeem,siq,faris n fyza..

TO BE CONTINUED ONCES IM BCK HOME...............

anyways... head to banquet n eat w bo,q,emil,yuna,falah,dzul,faris n fyza..
4 th first tym i was so nice..i feed tht faris chicken..guess my purpose was to leave a gd impression b4 things end btwn us sooner or ltr..
hmmm..n thr he goes again..bck to his normal self...bein nice by offerin me his drinks..distrbin me in a flirtin way..hmmmmm....
i will jus entertain him den.. i will b nice to him BUT with limits.. n soon off he go.... i haf to shoo him off frm lovin me..moreovr i kena warning frm lots of ppl abt him alr.. ppl lik dzul, haqeem, kath n ..... so im not gonna let thm dwn.. i don wanna waste their breathe advisin me..

so got home 9 plus today .. early huh.. i noe!!
yani kolled .. we tok.. she was so woried abt ira.. scared fahmi wld do smtg bad to her..hmmm i'll pray nth bad will hpn. up next is mirza,called him,tok awhile n followed by farhan. he was suprised by my kol..coz a few secs b4 i called, he was actually thinkin abt me.. he was sayin to himself tht i haf been nice towrds him lately.. this few days i have been kolling n checkin abt him n hw's his day n stuffs..without failing.. i myself realise th weirdness in me.. i guess im jus doin wd my heart feels lik doin..
went online 1+...n 3am im still chatting w seth..
we tok crap..he asked me weird n private qns.tok abt faris..
download 4 him songs n stuffs..ahahas. aiyo.seth cohen,seth cohen... nyahahahhahas!!

Ryt aft seth got offline at 4am, faris went online. he chat w me... he noes dt i finds him irritating.. wen asked hu told u, he tell me hu..then i reason out y he's such a pest.say sorry to him cz i noe i did hurt him.n he too said sorry 4 hurtin me. n we r fine w it nw.. he was bein okay.. n partially great jus now..cz he cn see n noe dt im having a hard tym w my life now.. n also my msn nick says so..
gaf me couple of advise n stuffs.. i briefly spill out some of th problm tht im havin hard tym on.. sooooo yeah he entertain my shits... at th same tym siq n esh chat w me too..both tok abt my nick.esh tok abt th past nisa which kinda pissed me a lil..cz i hate th past me..th past nisa bck then was so wild..she does stuffs witout usin her brain.. ENUF! NOT GONNA TOK LOTS ABT IT !!

WHILE.... for this siq.. we tok abt th past too..on th dae we met n stuffs, abt this indon kid hu wants him to go ovr her hse tht is at jakarta..arrrggghahahahahha!
teased him sayin tht this gal had a crush on him n all... n he was lik yarh yarh yarh... he cnt b bothred much abt her cz its far away.. JAKARTA 4 goodness sake...
hmmmmmmm yeah so......... we chat till 5 plus n off we go to our lala land..

2007-12-06T11:51:00.000+08:00

its aqilah b'dayy todayy...

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAYY AQILAH! :)))

2007-12-05T16:34:00.001+08:00

Myspace Heartbreak Comments

2007-11-29T11:12:00.000+08:00

ITS TUAN B'DAYY Tmr!!! 29 NOV!

HAPPY BIRTHDAyY TUAN!!!

2007-11-27T18:58:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAYY TO ESWARAN.. :))

2007-11-27T18:19:00.000+08:00

in th coach bus...

sateesh n me in shades...

2007-11-27T12:13:00.000+08:00

heading to mekong delta
dts whr we went to th vietnamese kid's sch n play w them..

2007-11-27T10:34:00.000+08:00

sunset at dam sen park.. :))
i love it..hw wonderful nature is..

at dam sen park..

th best morning n nyt tym market to shop 4 clothes n food..
thy sell th cheapest. u cn bargain lik hell!!

th streets of vietnam

th world of vietnam!

2007-11-27T10:06:00.000+08:00

vietnam airport

2007-11-27T09:56:00.000+08:00

anansa.amy.tasha.me.(in sch canteen)

2007-11-27T03:14:00.001+08:00

2007-11-27T01:52:00.002+08:00

th scenery of th island..

th sunrise frm th plane..

2007-11-25T13:49:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK FRM VIETNAM!! BASICALLY VIETNAM WAS A WHOLE LOT OF FUN!!
HAD FUN SHOPPING THR,..TH FOOD WAS GREAT XCEPT 4 TH SEAFOOD!!
EWW YUCKS!!HAHAHH..TH HOTEL WAS OKAY.I STAYED AT DAI NAM HOTEL.
N TH BELL BOY IS SO HOT!!OMG!K WILL TOK ABT IT LTR..
OVERALL HOLS THR WAS EXHILARATING N I FELT A SENSE OF RELISH BCK THR.
WENT TO PLACES LIK..

1. TH CHU CHI TUNNEL;WHR TH VIETNAMESE HAD THEIR WAR W TH AMERICANS..WENT THRU TH PITCHY TUNNEL N GOT OUT W A BCKACHE AS WE WERE HUNCHIN THRU OUT TH 40M TUNNEL.BREAK TYM,THY GAF US TAPIOCA N HOT GREEN TEA.

2.DAM SEN PARK-THT IS TH VIETNAM SO CALLED XCAPE THEME PARK.. WENT THR N PLAYED VARIETIES OF GAMES..FRM ROLLERCOASTA TO 3D THEATHR TO THEIR VRY OWN BIG SPLASH..WOW!I WAS LMAO..ESP DURING TH PART WEN WE PLAYED TH BUMBER CAR!!HAHAH!!ME N TASHA ON 1 CAR BANG AGAINST ANANSA N AMY ON 1 CAR..THRILLING!!

3.SAND DUNES-THEIR VRY OWN SAHARA DESSERT..I RENT TH PLASTIC SLIDE BOARD 4 ONI 10BUCK N U CLD SLIDE DWN THT STEEPY SANDY HIL AS MANY TYMES U WANT..IT WAS SCARY INITIALY!I HD GOOSEBUMP!BUT THEN I PULL MYSELF UP N GO AHEAD W IT!!AFT TRYIN I WANT EVN MOR!!HAHAS!

4.MUINE RESORT-WE HAD A NYT THR..BUT.. I DIDNT SLP..ME,ELLIOTT,SHEKH N AMY TON DT TYM..ONLY TASHA N ANANSA WERE ASLP..WE PLAYED CARDS N TOK CORK ALL NYT LONG.
B4 THT,ME N TASHA HANG OUT W SATEESH,LEONG,KARRTIK,JOSEPH n...
went to take fresh air by th beach which is located ryt nxt to our resort.WE DRINK N SMOKE..XCEPT 4 TASHA OF COURSE..CIGARATES N HEINEKEN THR IS DAMM CHEAP!1 BOX IS ONI $2(SIN)N A BOTTLE OF HEINEKEN IS ONI $1.90(SIN)..DAMM CHEAP HUH! I NOE!! WE PLAYED BILLARD TOO..(I DIDNT PLAY OF COURSE!AHAHH!)
AND WE SWIM THR AT THEIR POOL..

IT WAS DAMM FUN OVERALL!!!THR R PICS!..TAKE A LOOK!!

2007-11-14T14:20:00.001+08:00

fel.anansa.dzul.me.an

above;fel.me.man.an>

b4 went to vietnam,mit th starbucks dude n said farewell 4 th last tym....

i love my new frens..thy r bunch of nice peeps!!

will miss u guys a lot while im away!!

2007-11-14T14:16:00.000+08:00

dts faris..
newly mixed fren

2007-11-14T13:13:00.000+08:00

when out to city plaza wit yuna,q n their mummy ystd...
b4 heading thr,went to jurong ; samsung building to repair my camera..
we 3 wana haf our hair extention but.......... BAD NEWS!!
they only haf real hair...its a sin 4 us if we use real hair extention...
thus we'v gotta postponed it to some othr dae,until th aunty haf gotten 4 us fake hair..

ate ARNOLDS' aft tht..(thanks mummy!) n accmpy yuna cut th hair..
at 19:45, we quickly rushed n head to wlds cz th rest is waitin 4 us thr....
yuna went thr first w ogy while me n Q walk'd th shortest wae n bump onto faris n ogy..
went to em,smoke n tok shits!!hahhahh..

mit our STUCKS ADDICTS thr n tok shits all th wae...
thy were lots of us thr..its as thou tht territory belongs to us..hahah!!

ther is FEL,ANANSA,YUNA,Q,ME,JOEY,SIQ,FARIS,OGY,ZUL,MAN,FARHAN,BO n lots othrs which r new...i noticed tht th scene n situation at stucks were so beaming..
esp 4 ppl lik fel cz chuck kpt kollin her (hahahs,cld see hw happy she was..) ,
th couple yuna n ogy..hahahss.. and Q n zul..(but thy r not couple)
seein them make me haf th sense of happiness n jealousy 4 em..

all i did thr was jus stare blankly towards my dream guy..ahhahah..(kay stop it kai!)
besides tht,weird things happen to me dt nyt n tht point on tym..

its faris..he's acting weirdly towards me. he's been tokin to me all th tym..askin me 4 a favour sweetly, feeding me drinks , accmpnied me on a table n stuffs..
th worse thing.!! th'rs a thing which he did is totally, xactly th same as wd siq did to me th nyt b4..(tht is ystd).. noe wds tht thing??
him makin n askin me to sit beside him!! th incident btwn me n siq and me n him r totally th same.. its at th same sofa,same tymin n same plc..
but only one thing tht is diff....... th position of hw me n siq sqeeze n sat r diff as hw me n faris sat.... -was having a BLURR FACE for once-

isnt it weird..??frm thr i knew dt smtg's not ryt w faris..cz he evn wanna send me dwn wen i wanna go hm..n he played w my java chip frappe n i caught him lookin at me witout reasons numerous of tym.
he ask 4 my msn n added me ystd nyt wen i got home..
both of us were online n thr goes him confessing somthing..

2007-11-13T03:58:00.000+08:00

fcuk you evryone!!!!

fcuk you!!!!!

go n FCUK OFF n
DIE!!!

i mean it fcukers!!!!!

2007-11-12T00:38:00.000+08:00

new fren... ...muhammad shaffiq sowtali....

2007-11-12T00:36:00.001+08:00

SIQ SQEEZIN TGHTR BESID ME ON A ONE SEATER SOFA
OMG!dt moron! aiyer...!

i didnt noe tht i was...
CAUGHT ON CAMERA..
Q CAUGHT U!!

2007-11-12T00:28:00.000+08:00

THATS SiQ TH sicko!!

2007-11-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

cldnt slp in peace yst nyt..received msg n fon kols frm couple of ppl non stop.....
ppl lik..adrian n amyrhil( frm OCC ) msg me..n ash kpt callin too..

bsides tht....,ppl lik seth annoys my mind too...i kpt thinkg abt wht hpn btwn us... till todae,he still didnt do anythg abt it..it sadden we wen i read th msn conversation btwn he n yuna.. th words tht he uses...im at fault ...

YES!I NOE SETH!! WHT DOES IT TAKES TO MAKE U 4GIF ME?SETTHHHHHH!!!

Y???y are u hot headed n ego jus lik me!!! im lik a FOOL gerl cryin ovr a guy hu is not evn my bf in th first plc..
Y?Y?Y AM I CRYIN??? its bcz im bein sincere on u..sincerely askin 4 ur 4gifness n yet this is wht i get in return.. for smone hu jus met n noe each othr oni 4 a few weeks,do u think i deserve tis?
i tried diff things but yet IGNORANCE is al i get..

for th last tym SALAM SETH COHEN........
FORGIVE ME....

let us b happy again lik hw we were bck then in tht pic above left.

2007-11-09T15:23:00.000+08:00

The girls....

yuna,anansa,q

yuna,me,fel :Q,photographer.

yuna,me,fel :Q,photographer.

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Outings with Q.
Starbucks Galore.. (8:11:07)

Kai :rasberry frappe..

Q :green tea frappe

R&GT frappe..

receipts : 8/11/07

quench your thirst
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Toilet Galore...haha

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retards.

hari raya..

& lastly

JYEAH!!

me,yuna,fel,Q.

last resort

2007-11-09T14:47:00.000+08:00

kristine michelle lingat wedding :)

..her bridesmate..

in th cab heading to th church

at orchid country club

we'r eating OCTOPUS!!

rocker bridesmate!!
jyeah!!

at th end of th day, all is left our th lingering footsteps

at kristine's place getting dressed

n taking some pics..

cnt want for our scrumptious meal to b served!!

2007-11-09T13:52:00.000+08:00

fel.Q.me

me.fel.yuna

jamming!!!

jesus??? hhahah!!

shikin.yuna.fel.me

jyeah
;)

2007-03-06T11:52:00.000+08:00

in th bus on th wae to sengkang with shaiful. we chatt gossip n tease one anothr..
hees..we hear to songs in th bus n guess wd... he hf ashly parkr angel song..
oh my god...i love dt song..
he playd dt song continously thru out th whole journey as i wanna hear em.. thanks shaiful. anywy, dt day he revealed smtg suprising n i was shocked..didnt xpect wd zuraida said eventually turn out to be true...

2007-03-03T11:45:00.000+08:00

todae sch was errr average i shall say..
in th morning shaiful fetch me n we went sch toghtr...
heyy ..we'r nthg alryt.. so dn tink wrongly..
he came ovr to th basktball blk n we walkd our way to intchg n off to sch.. aft sch went to library n read some books w aidah...n off we went home..

2007-02-14T19:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES DAE!!!!!!

made hrt shape cards 4 my lovd oness...in retrn i got gifts frm fel, lala, keira,faeza,nins,thina n sanjeevn

lst yr valentines r much more fun then tis yr...its quite dull tis yr...

weird thg hpn tdy..afiq j kip disturbin me,

shaiful says im arogant.. cz i changed my no without informin n nvr go joggin w him anymor...
okayy thts shallow!

yi zhong, zai ,yuna, blade ,mike ,farhan n huever...... msg n wish h.v.d..

while i wish sis n valent h.v.d..

received msg frm farhan dt nyt...he's damm sick..haixx pitied him....

well wht cn i say..?
hope he'll gt well soon...

tc farhan..gt well soonnn...

2007-02-13T18:51:00.000+08:00

aft sch went to enjoy sakae sushi buffet w fel joey n joe...

:)fel almost puke out her food bcoz of a joke i made......hahasss..

i ordered hot green tea n ate variaties of sushi...man!!!its so steammyyy...

yum yummmm i enjoy strawberry smilesss.....alot indeed...

bt i don enjoy e watrmelon coz thy reminds me of lavae breast...!!!!!

ewwww disgusting!
oh, one of th waiteress didnt zip her skirts n we were laughing our arse out..

'' IT SEEMS THAT UR ZIP ISNT WRKING!!!''

2007-02-12T18:44:00.000+08:00

hd to attnd wrkshp to dae at somerset thr.tghtr w tasha, aida, terence ,darren n mark...

alot of tings hpn.....hahasss.we laugh n laugh n laugh whole mornin till evnin..

its all bcz of tt cheesecake n brownie incidnt..

we took lots of picss to n fro....

really enjoyd myself..reach wld,we didnt went hm straight..bt instd we had stopovr at cwp

went to 77th street n saw herman(my brothr) toghr w his 77th street fren..

he was kind dt dae..he ask me whtr hf i eatn n gaf me money to eat..

took dt 10 bucks dt was givn n treat tasha n aida...

uhh ya...i was shock to receive a msg frm zikir..wondr hw he gets my no...

he msg me n stuffsss.... get a life i cnt be botherd w this kind of guys..

2007-02-09T18:35:00.000+08:00

Yay!!.....RON E LIM IS BCK IN CLASSS :)

i was w aida th whole dae todae...hd fun duri p.e..haasss..

someone's nipple came poppin out..

heeessss..okayy sensored!

went to mit iena aft sch..heehs she's stil e same..

nvr change..chatterbox gal..hahas

gt home .slp n was awakn by mike's fon kol..went dwn mit up w him to noe his results.

im hapi 4 him dt he got wd he want...as wd he has aimed for..less then 20 points..

while (kath) she gets 18 point..im glad they'r hapi..

2007-02-07T18:10:00.000+08:00

meet up w mike today.crap n bullshitg abt al stuffss.got hm frm sch at 6plus.

change n went dwn to mit him.frm thr gt hm agin at 9.

do my hmwrk n off to bed...

nth much tdy..

ouh ya...aft sch mit up w yuna n slack at outsid MAC ...

n we saw amin...hehessss...walkin w gf i guess...

hahasss bt sad to sae he is repeatin N 'levels tis yr...

hope he will do well...
all th best n do study hard my dear fren..

2007-02-06T19:15:00.000+08:00

didnt went sch 2dae... feelg too exhausted...n stress in maths...

haixxxx

durin th early nyte went to th window n stare deeply at th sky while thinking thru n cried.

VERY STRESS!!!
fcuk man! fuck!!
lately i've noticed tht i wasnt in a peace mood..
aint noe th reason y..

mayb perhaps due to menses or perhaps maybe nt ......
GOD KNOWS!!